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5/28/09

I am a fat girl inside a skinny girl's body!




Current weight: 172.3 lbs. On my way down to 147 lbs.

My sweet Sis in law, Susy said this to me today. "I am a fat girl inside of a skinny girl's body." This is so true for me. My weight has changed, my life has changed, but my brain ---well, not so much. I still react in times of stress like I used to, I want to eat. Now, granted I am better at it. But Susy and I always joke, "They bypassed my gut, not my BRAIN!" Too true. (Okay, 172 lbs and calling myself skinny you ask? Yep. Compared to the 311 lb woman I was...)

Now if I do not want the actual physical manifestation of that fat girl back, I must keep honest and clear. I can no longer try for perfection and then, when I fail back away from everyone and every thing. That does not work.

Just like "fat" comes from what's eating you (in your heart and brain)--'thin' comes from making the right choices more often than not and doing whats good for you.

Oh, by the freakin' way: went out for my first walk/jog today in eons. Felt good. Then, BAM! pulled a calf muscle! And limped hobbled and dragged my po self home to ice the injury. So now walking is a problem? Hell. The universe is trying to tell me something...I just have to slow down and listen!

2 comments:

Susy on 2:35 PM said...

:) you got it!

i love ya! Be happy, be proud and be yourself. helps knowing your not all alone. thanks for leaning on me this time. anytime! i get it! LOL

Fab Kate on 6:35 AM said...

I'm glad you're here online, blogging, and that I found you.

I start worrying about the same things. I'm new to surgery, only a few months out, but I worry about the future, about getting too comfortable and falling back into old habits.